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Went out for a walk today! It was a great feeling to get outside. I feel so much clearer from it. I’m working on changing the cycle, putting time into creative and fun efforts instead of the self-destructive ones that I’ve been. Instead of ignoring the problems, working with them to find solutions. It’s confusing,Continue reading “10-07-2020”

Didn’t get out today, but I put a dent in some job applications and they require a significant amount of time and thought, so I’m gonna need something physical to keep my mind right. I’m also feeling a little out of my head today. Tomorrow.

Things are slowly coming back into form. Smoke is clearing. I saw the sun for the first time in several days yesterday, not just light grey smoke. It’s definitely a very strange time. Exercise has been off, though, and I’m looking forward to getting back to it. I miss it, really. It was so goodContinue reading “10-04-2020 and 10-05-2020”

Still smoke in the air, but it looks like it’s clearing more. I dunno. Hope to get out soon. Definitely don’t like just being stuck inside. Things feel okay still, though, which is nice. Taking it day to day, or at least trying to.

Didn’t get to go out again because of the smoke, just stayin’ in. Trying to stay calm and quiet through the day. My head’s been moving faster today. Things still feel pretty centered and stable, I’m just doing my best to keep it that way.

Smoke in the air again. Stayin’ in. Did some chores. Nothing crazy. Will try to move a bit later if I feel like it, but I do feel okay now, better overall than last week. It feels nice.

The air smells of ash, so no going out. I feel better though, which is nice. I’m slowly coming back from whatever pushed me off. Things are slow, but that’s nice, and things are okay. We’ll see.

Went out this morning for a walk. It was clear enough, which I’m very grateful for. I stopped short of my usual because my stomach felt off. I feel alright now, just slightly off. I dunno why. Hoping it is still clear for tomorrow, hope the fire gets contained.

Stayed inside today. The fires flared up and I just couldn’t make myself go out. Any big things like that kinda shake me, so I end up just stayin’ in and trying to distract myself. If it’s clear enough tomorrow I’ll try to get out to do something, but it’s not guaranteed. Hope everyone isContinue reading “9-28-2020”

Went for a long walk today and tired myself out pretty good. It’s nice to know that I can still do a decent amount of exercise. My base level seems semi-high, which is a nice feeling. It just feels good to exhaust myself, too. Everything feels calmer now.